Wednesday February 4, 2004

Circle of Words - #5

Circle of Words is a weekly set of questions that are somewhat personal, spiritual, and will explore your inner most thoughts and feelings. Hopefully these questions will provide you with a little bit of personal therapy and allow your readers a little peek inside your soul.

Creating an Authentic Lifestyle for Yourself and Those You Love

It's a funny thing about life: if you refuse to accept anything but the best, you very often get it.
-Somerset Maugham

1. Most people can learn to live without certain things in life. Patience allows you to wait gracefully and gratefully for the best to arrive and you know it will. Can you think back to any moment in your life where you thought something in particular would never come...and finally it did? If you think about it, whatever that thing was that finally did happen (or you did receive) was all because of choices that you made. What if you would have made a different choice than what you did...where do you think you would be today?

Buried Dreams

Where there is great love there are always miracles.
-Willa Cather

2. Everyone can think back to a time when they said to a friend or parent....I'm going to be an astronaut when I grow up...or I nurse...or doctor. And many of us even as adults have said by next year we will be in a different house...I will have a different job...etc. What about your dreams? Do you have any memories of something that you wanted to do with your life but the timing was off...you failed...there were unforeseen circumstances that just caused this dream to be buried so deeply it never came true. And now that you are where you are today...does part of you still wish that dream would have been a reality?

Meeting the Inner Explorer

There is only one journey. Going inside yourself.
-Rainer Maria Rilke

3. You have just received the ultimate ticket to your first-class fantasy. On this journey you get to go anywhere you want to go....all expenses paid..full-time baby sitter...no worries, everything will be taken care of for you! Where would you go? Who would go with you? How long would you stay there? And what would you do once you were there? (Describe it in detail if you would like!)


My thoughts

Creating an Authentic Lifestyle for Yourself and Those You Love

If you think about it, whatever ... was all because of choices that you made. What if you would have made a different choice than what you did...where do you think you would be today?

I can think of two things:

  1. Figuring out what to "do" after College, then getting out of School and finding a job
  2. Buying a house
As for the first, the answer is easy. I made all of the right choices (although some of them certainly seemed wrong at the time! :-) Had I not tried a Forensic Science grad school program, I might not have decided to fall back on Microbiology. Had I not chosen Microbiology, I might not have gone to the University of Maryland, where I met Richard, was introduced to Unix, figured out what I really did want to do, and proceeded to work toward that goal. Had I not met Richard, I would not have had the necessary support and assistance to make the goal a reality.

Had I not been miserably unhappy at UMD, with an advisor I couldn't stand and a project I didn't care for (and had I not been the kind of a person who will do practically anything to get out of a miserable situation!), I wouldn't have dumped my advisor, causing the department to drop my TA-ship, which led to Dr. Colwell "adopting" me as one of her students aand providing me with a thesis project, giving her support to my plan to do computer analysis of biological data (something that "wasn't being done yet" at that time in Maryland).

Things do have a way of working out... sometimes.

As for the house — we planned, we saved, and we were very lucky in renting a house from terrific owners who had a policy of never raising the rent on tenants they liked! The Satos were very proud of the fact that so many of their tenants moved out only because they had bought their own homes. It was Mr. and Mrs. Sato's hope that all of their "good" tenants be able to become home owners, so they held the rent steady to give those tenants a better opportunity to save toward their own houses.

Buried Dreams

...And now that you are where you are today...does part of you still wish that dream would have been a reality?

Actually, no. I really like where I am today. When I was in grade school and Junior High, I expected to become a scientist one day. But frankly, when I got to College I realized I dont much care for "bench science". I'm not particularly interested in research or long experiments. (Plus, I really didn't like holding my breath near the incubator or washing my hands so many times during the day!).

So I noodled around, tried out a couple of grad programs (see previous question) and then I met Richard. I had taken a computer programming class in High School and also half of a double major in C. Sci. in College; I already knew I liked programming. I just didn't know how much I liked programming until I didn't have to punch cards to do it! And that was it. I found my dream career. Then "all" I had to do was find an advisor to help me get a thesis project so I could achieve the first step in that career.

I know what my dream is, and I've been holding constant to that dream (with a few minor teaks here and there) for over 20 years now! The hard part at the moment isn't the dream, it's the reality. The job market is slow and competition is fierce. I know what I want to be doing; finding someone to pay me to do it is not so easy.

Meeting the Inner Explorer

Where would you go? Who would go with you? How long would you stay there? And what would you do once you were there?

Where would I go? Don't take this personally but... I would go Home! I'd take my Hubby with me and we'd stay home until the money ran out. We'd read, work on personal projects, finish the back deck, redo the dining room floor. We'd enjoy ourselves and our cats and our projects without having to spend our time performing tasks for other people.

I've never understood how the phrase "get away from it all" came to include gettng away from home. A baby sitter for the kids?! Our kids are feline and I don't want to leave them with a sitter. I want to be with them. Home and family is where I belong.

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